Is there a God?

In recent posts, I have dealt with the controversy regarding Religion vs. Science. I was raised Roman Catholic and although I disagree a great deal with the policies of an European male dominated bureaucracy, I still attend mass regularly (whether out of guilt or habit, I haven't decided.) Having said that, it doesn't keep me from speculating about other possibilities.

What happens when we die? No church can claim to know for sure. No one has ever come back to tell us.

My mother witnessed my grandmother's death. She said that at the moment she passed a pulsing light emanated from her body. At that moment, my grandmother, a southerner, said, "Ooo-eee" and passed. "Ooo-eee" is an old southern expression of excitement. It made me think. What happens to the electrical energy that is us?

The first law of thermodynamics is that one can neither create nor destroy energy. Our body uses electrical energy in order to function. Where does that initial energy that becomes us come from? In the womb, does the zygote take a small amount energy from its parents? Or does it borrow it from the universe?

At the quantum level, energy is borrowed, frequently, but it must be returned very quickly. Is that what happens to us? Is the energy that is us borrowed from the universe, only to be returned when we die? My mother, a very down to earth woman, wasn't hallucinating. I believed her account of my grandmother's passing. Is that what happened at the moment of her death?

The bible says that we will "know everything" when we die. If our energy returns to the universe, we become one with it. I won't speculate as to whether we are cognizant at that point. I haven't a clue if our consciousness is able to sustain itself without the support of the biochemistry of the brain, but it is a fun thought.